Sunday, June 28, 2009

Nice Sunday Session

Well, I went camping on Friday night so I didn't get an opportunity to play any type of poker this weekend. I was going to link up and do a ghosting session with Casp Air but we decided to reschedule and I decided to just grind instead.

I was really proud of the way that I played today. I was doing alright in the TT but shoved in a standard spot with AJ got called by QQ and proceeded to lose. The Daily 30k I did alright in but made some spewy decisions. One would be the death of my tournament when I tried to three bet all in with 67o to a late position minraise and he had AQ. The play is a little spewy because I should of had more of an idea about his range but I had just moved to the table and it looked weak. It didn't help that I flopped the 6 but like Stars usually does he turned his Q. I am just proud for the fact that I actually opened up a little and tried this because I normally never three bet light @ all and now I know what needs to be going through my head the next time I attempt it.

Early on in the session, it just seemed like I was getting absolutely owned. I can't even tell you how many times I had AA and it got cracked by people hitting sets on me. Luckily, I kept my wits and ended up a little over $600 on the day. It is making my month look a little more respectable but obv my ROI has been so bad. I look forward to grinding the next two months and maybe even reaching 1.5k sng's in a month. I really want to finish strong this month because it would be nice to move up and try to mix in some $27's if my bankroll permits it.


Sunday, June 21, 2009

The Light Goes On

Something just clicked to me when I was talking to Reasons14 yesterday. Our conversation was just about optimal and unexploitable in SNG's. Then I got to start thinking about everything and realized that when I play poker I am playing way to much like a robot. I am not really thinking about everything that is going on. That is the very key aspect of poker. You must always thinking about what is going on, what is going to happen, what range you put this person on, etc etc the rabbit hole is so endless. Its then when I realized that I have not been putting my mind and focusing into poker enough. This is the main reason why I feel like my results have been so sorry this month.

With a new mentality, I fired up some SNG's today and had a very good day. Granted I might of ran well in certain places but I feel like I tried to be more mentally involved in my game instead of playing like a robot. I felt like today I played one of my best sessions I have in a while. I know I am actively working on my game but I am just trying to take it to the next level. I think what I am just going to try to do is just make sure that I stay so focused on poker that I want to be mentally exhausted when my session is over. I know it sounds crazy but I know that if I feel this way I feel like I would of left everything on the virtual felt. I know another corny sports reference that relates to poker but that is how I feel.

I definitely am excited to see what the end of this month brings. I am very proud of myself because I have grinded out over 1k SNG's in a month for my highest volume month. Although it hasn't been easy and has been so freaking swinging I think I have learned a lot about myself and my game. I know what I need to do to take it to the next level and that is what I am going to try and do. That means being more of a student of the game and reading more strat articles etc. I am also going to get a deuces cracked membership this month and going to stop being a nit. This should help me for preparing for my transition to cash games in the future. I know I won't be playing SNG's for forever and feel like I need to evolve even more as a player. I also want to by the book Winning Poker Tournamnets One Hand at a Time. I think this will be a good book for me to read and help me with my bigger MTT game because right now I play them and feel like a fish out of water.


Happy Fathers Day

Just wanted to say Happy Fathers day to all of the fathers out there especially my father. My father has been very influential in my life and I can't thank him enough for what he has done in my life. He provided me with food in my stomach, clothes on my back, and a place to live. My father is a person I can consider my hero because of what he has been through in his life. It's crazy how a little country boy from Wilson, LA can grow up and do such great things with his life. He has a wonderful family, especially his son :-), and is respected by everyone whose life he was able to impact.

I can't say enough for what my dad has done for me though. He taught me how to play baseball, football, and basketball when I was younger. He also put a tremendous amount of time into those things for me. He was always right there supporting me or being a coach on one of my teams. My dad could work all day and after work would just take me to practice and be so supportive to me. My dad also provided for me everything without even asking. He paid for my private high school, college, and even my expenses when I was in college. There is so much more that he has done for me that I can't even type because this post would be eons long.

Lastly, I just wanted to say I love you Dad for everything that you have taught me in my life. I may not of been very happy when you punished me when I got in trouble but those bumps in the road are what made me grow up and shaped my foundation of a man that I am today. I wish I could just write more about my dad but when I think about the things he has done in my life for me my mind starts going everywhere and its so hard for me to capture everything. I hope you have a great Fathers Day and know that your son loves you very much. Just know that it is my dream to not only be the man that you are but even better. It's going to be a hard task but I think I can get there one day.


Wednesday, June 17, 2009


I just feel like hitting my head on the table for endless hours. So sick when I look at my sharkscope and see how many games I have played and little to nothing to show for it. Oh well it is what it is I guess I just have to deal with it. It seems like this month I never got any real traction going. I win go on a streak then seems like I can't keep moving forward. I can't really complain I guess because even though I feel like that I love playing. It kind of just feels like I am in the zone thinking about what situation or decision I am going to have to make next.

I am also happy because I am starting to study more and I am sticking with it. I know I could of shut it down by now but I am stubborn and can't wait for my heater. I am just gonna laugh and grin so freaking hard when stars activates my boom switch instead of the dookie switch because I feel like I am getting shitted on!!! I know it sounds like I complain a lot but hey this is what I am feeling right now. I guess you don't have to read it if you don't want to :-p!


Monday, June 15, 2009

Plugging Leaks

Late last night, I went over some HH's with Reasons14. It is amazing how good he is with knowing ranges in different situations. He really studies hard and it shows because he can break stuff down and know exactly what ranges you need in each situation. Then there is me, I definitely have a good idea bout what ranges I need to shove but more often than not I am a feel based player. I keep saying that I want to get to the level where I am sick good with identifying what ranges I need and when but its kind of hard for me especially trying to balance things.

We found some leaks that I do have. I am not going to put my business out there about what leaks were found but I am going to work hard on fixing them. I think the best way to do this is to cut down some of my tables. I am going to start 14 tabling instead of playing 18 to work on fixing my leaks. I mean my leaks are not huge but every little bit counts. Especially for me, because it seems like I am basically going through like a 2k break even stretch although it might be less but that's what it looks like on Sharkscope.

Balance!!!! I know I wrote something about this a while ago but it is so freaking hard for me to find a balance between poker and actually having a social life. It's bad enough I go to work from 6:00-2:30, although I am very thankful to have a job, and then get off and start grinding. Plus people really don't even know the hustle/struggle it is being an SNG grinder. I mean my friends would look at me crazy if I say uhh sorry I can't go out to have drinks I am grinding. Plus, you never know what experience that you are letting pass by. I knew that playing a lot more volume this month it was going to be harder for me to balance thing but it is good. I need to find out how to fit all of this in together. I like poker too much and I want to be successful too much so I know I need to figure out how to squeeze in volume. At the same time I know you have to be a well rounded individual so I guess it is like a work in progress.

I am happy because I see 1k games played in site but I am not happy with my profit margin. Oh well at least I will have a bunch of fpp's.


Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Better Days

I had a good day playing today and actually won money. I don't know what happened but, Reasons14 was railing me and I was listening to The Diplomats and I went on a pretty sick heater. I was running so good it was unbelievable. I felt like I could of shoved ATC's and still won against AA. I absolutely love that feeling when you are on a heater. It's so hard to explain but you almost feel invincible like you can't do anything wrong. Even if you do something wrong, you always feel like you are going to hit that gin card and suckout.

I have actually put in a lot of volume for myself this month. I am pretty impressed too because I have just been pushing myself. There have been times where I felt like I ran like complete dog shit and I still find a way to keep on playing and staying on top of my game. It's not easy but still I grind.

It's crazy how far I have come in the time I started playing these SNG's. I remember where I only use to play one table at a time and was biting tooth and nail to cash. I always use to laugh at people shoving and was like oh I will wait to crack them. Funny how the tides have turned because now I am 18 tabling and I am the one shoving. Although I feel like the games have gotten harder, I still feel like I can be +ev and make money if I just put in the volume. I never realized how much volume I didn't put in and how small my sample sizes were per month. This month has also taught me how much I actually need to play to put in that required volume. I guess that makes no sense at all but you really don't realize how much you have to grind until you set a goal start reaching it and realize you put in mad work.

I need to put in some heavy games the next couple of days because I have some plans for this weekend now. I will be going paintballing for my first time on Saturday and totally looking forward to it. I am kind of nervous because I know it will sting like a mug when I get shot for the first time but I can't wait to go out there and try to light some one up.


Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Still I Grind....

But I don't shine. So far this month I am very proud with the volume of games that I have put in. I have put in over 500 sng's this month and that is a ton for me because my top month is like 800 and that was last month.

Although my volume has increased, I have no money to show for it but I feel like I am playing well. These things are like printing money and I just feel like I have to be patient and keep grinding and the positive results will come around. I just hate when I am not up on the month or losing.

To me, I see poker as a dream to get me out of this cubicle and waking up every morning at 6 am. It is like a huge punch to the stomach when I am not successful and I think that it fuels me with a hunger for more. This is absolutely insane because I have never felt this way about anything in my life. I can sit there and be down money playing sng's but know that I am like a 20x happier person but oh well it is what it is. Maybe I just need to realize that for the rest of my life will consist of working and playing at the same time although I would love to just play. I mean yeah I hate the 6:00-2:30 and it is guranteed income. Maybe I can just use both sources as good income so I can just retire early meh. Oh well I am still positive and still grinding just can't wait to keep shining!


Wednesday, June 3, 2009


Right now I have no idea wtf is going on with poker. I finally corrected the problem of not misclicking while I am running my sessions with HEM. But that is not really the tilting part. How can I run so freaking good in the $6.50's and so bad in the $12's. I find it very perplexing but I am just gonna keep playing my game and just patiently waiting on my heater. I am doing pretty good with putting in volume for this month and I hope to keep it up. One person commented on my blog and said try to be disgustingly positive. That's all I am gonna try to do. Just grind grind grind until that money comes in. I know I am +ev so no need to even trip.

Other than that life is pretty good and it is clear that I am always living for the weekend. It's bad to wish away your life but I always get that feeling like wow I can't wait till the weekend is here. Oh well till next time see you on the tables.


Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Didn't Play Today

Unfortunately was not a good day today in terms of putting in volume. I had a softball game at 5:15 so I played and that and we proceeded to loose I mean get cheated out of the game. Basically the story goes we were up by like 3 runs and the home team is up hitting. They ended up scoring enough runs in that inning to overtake the lead and at the same time they ran the clock out too. We ended up losing by like 2 or 3 runs because they called the time limit for the game. WTF I feel like we got cheated where is David Stern I know he is behind this.

I plan on putting in at least four hours of loading again. I really am going to try to reach my goal of 1-1.5k SNG's on the month. I mean these things are like printing money as long as you put in the volume. However, if you look at my recent post I guess it is not like printing money.

The one positive thing that I did do is to change my avatar on PokerStars. Since people have jokes when I say my name is Wilford they are always ask like Wilford Brimley. Well, this has only really recently happened were people got that joke so I have changed my avatar from a fly pic of me to the one below. Hopefully it brings the run good and good health weee!