Late Night

Probably going to be a super late night because I need to clean up the crib. I have been traveling so much and neglected the apartment for too long. I have often times thought about getting a cleaning service or maid to come help 1x a week but I think that is waaaay to frivolous and I just need to start making time for cleaning.

I am doing alright with my push ups. I restarted the week one workout and day 2 went a lot smoother. I am really starting to focus on my breathing when I am doing them to help keep me in a rhythm. I just found myself not breathing at all when I was doing them before which is pretty bad. Now I am trying to breath in when I go down and breath out as I push back up.

I grinded today and did fairly well. Seems like my game is alright but I know I was running way hot. Some of the beats I was putting on people were lol but hey that's variance. Anyways gotta make some progress on cleaning or it will never get done.

wbmustang

Wipe Out

I can't grind @ all today. I am just so tired from traveling and doing massive school work. But, the school work was definitely my fault. I should of done it a lot earlier to prevent myself from having a huge headache. Sigh duck. It's the life I choose though. I think I could easily say f it and just spend the time I do homework doing other stuff but I can't. For some reason, I really want this masters. I have this goal set inside of my head and I will make it.

I purged my bank account a little and now I am on the right path to saving. I had to go to Tampa Bay for a wedding and waited to the absolute minute to buy a ticket. I had to do this because I am terrible at juggling my time off @ work so I really didn't know how much time paid off that I had. I ended up leaving at 10pm on Friday and getting to Tampa at 9:30am. From there, I had to drive about an hour to get to the wedding. I grabbed something to eat, passed out for a couple of hours, then got ready for the wedding. Tbh I was really scared that I was going miss the wedding when I went to sleep. I was so ridiculously tired.

The wedding was a really nice and it was really good to see how happy the two together. Anyways, I was able to see a lot of friends from college and get ridiculously drunk. All you can drink patron is money and I can't turn that down. The wedding started at 3 pm and I didn't stop partying till about 3 am. I proceeded to pass out and then sleep for the majority on Sunday. My flight left at 5pm and I got back in Seattle at 11pm. I went to sleep and ended up going back to work at 6 am. I know sick life I live :-s.

I also got a chance to rent an Infiniti G37 when I was in Tampa. That was a bad idea because now I got a little taste of a luxury car. I know I won't be getting a car for at least another five years but I am gonna be doing some research until then. I felt like a total boss in it and it was ridiculously quick. Oh well if I want the finer things in life I better start busting my ass and saving now.

As far as poker is concerned I got a chance to put some volume in on Monday. I had a nice little upswing but I was happier with the way that I played. I really felt like I was in the groove and not rusty at all so that was good. I was way too tired for anything today so I just coached my buddy and watched the USA lose to the Czech Republic in a soccer friendly. I will try not to worry about the result but it definitely sucks to lose.

I am actually proud of myself because I got myself into the stock market game. I got a 401k and a savings but decided to start doing a little buying in the market. Everything I am looking at will be strictly longterm and I don't plan on touching the money. At least I have some type of plan for something for once.

Lastly, I know TLDR probably didn't make it this far, I started up with a push up bet with reasons and yodaddy. We have to be able to do 75 consecutive push ups. For every push up you fall short you owe $25. Since I am betting two people it's gonna turn into $50. I started the program and struggled through week 1. I am going through week 1 again since I struggled and hope to go through the six week program. I am also contemplating running home from work. I work about 4.2 miles away from where I live so I think this can be feasible. The only downside is that I have to figure out how I am going to get to work. Maybe wbmustang will take the bus to work. Idk but gotta figure it out.

Oh yea and congrats to Assassinato and reasons14. Assassinato won $48k in the $1k Monday and he really deserves it. He puts in the hours and works his ass off. Also not to mention how many times he has gotten so close. I hope this score is just an appetizer for his filet mignon score that's gonna happen later. Reasons14 took down the $109 Turbo for a nice little score. I would say you would hear from him but he is too much of an underground poker mogul to put in any type of volume :-p. Anyways till next time.

wbmustang

Life/Poker Update

Life is getting a little bit better. Even though I made some bad decisions I am dealing with it and moving forward. Sometimes I wish there was a save and restore point in life. You know how it is when you play video games. Sometimes you mess up and want to do it right the next time so you just load up from your last restore point. Unfortunately, life is not a video game and you just have to deal with what happens. Accepting consequences and then moving on and learning is all about growing better as a person.

I grinded for a good amount this weekend. I am not too happy with how I played Sunday. Even though I have a winning session I just wasn't verry happy with my play. I felt that I made way too many bad decisions which resulting in more gambly plays. I ended up on in the black for the day, awww yes black is beautiful, but I wasn't thrilled with how sloppy I played. I will be making some minor adjustments but more some of me being aware of my image. Oh well it's only one session when this happened but I am disappointed because I strive to play quality volume.

I wish I could put my finger on what was making me play so sloppy. @ first it was due to the fact that the internet was cutting in and out and was just being annoying. Then, there were times were I could feel my temper rise a little bit. For the most part I relaxed, but I got caught slipping a couple of times. Lol it's so weird to even explain but it's that feeling you get when you are just pissed and burning up on the inside and you are about to do something crazy. I don't even know why I felt that way, maybe because I lost like three all ins in a row when I was the favorite. I need to be emotionless and just not care as much.

I look forward to grinding for the rest of the week. I have to leave town on Saturday and go to my cousins graduation in Philly.

wbmustang

April Results

As I said I would post my April results in a different post. As you can see I ran well with some extremely low volume. Obv looking at stuff gives me motivation so I can put some volume in. I played around 50 games last night and that went fairly well. I just need to make sure that I keep trying to play the best of my abilities. Quality >> Quantity! In my masters class I have been hearing that more and more and it applies to everything in life.

Doing better in some aspects in terms of procrastination etc on some things. I am not where I need to do but definitely taking some strides. My goal is to play 1k games this month. My class is almost over and I will have some of my weekends back for three weeks. The only thing I am concerned about is having to take a trip to Philly for my cousins graduation and a wedding in FL later on that week. Other than that it is full steam ahead.

Big congratulations to vertek for the month he posted last month. He is about to go into it full time and I give him props because he definitely has more balls than me. Unfortunately I have to finish school before I make any moves. I know I may be restricting myself because who knows how long poker will be here but getting my masters is one of my goals. Neither my mom or dad have one and I want to have a leg up on them weeeeeeee.

I have kept this same janky design for my site for some time and will looking to switch it up soon. So be on the look out.

Yo son where you been @?

Man, whenever I get into some personal bullshit I promise I never know how to deal with this. April was a fairly crazy month. It started off well when I went to Toronto for a business trip. I had a really good time meeting vers, cardlo, and Shen888. Toronto is a really cool and diverse place and would love to go back. Hell I wouldn't mind living there but I know the winters are pretty cold. I mean I probably could deal with them being from Denver though. But obviouslly my trip wasn't flawless because drama had to ensue.

I won't go into many details about but I basically just got caught up in some T Woods type bullshit. I always knew it would happen at some point in time but just kept pushing the envelope. I guess it's a part of the reason why I am a poker player. I just make gambles. I have made so many gambles in my life where it is just not necessary. A lot of the gambles that I made could of really messed up my life and prevent me to be in the situation that I am in today. I guess it's a part of getting older and becoming more mature but damn I am 25 years old. It's sad when you are 25 and you feel like you haven't really matured since you were 18. To those who I have affected I want to appologize. I am not perfect and make mistakes but it's never fun to play with peoples feelings.

When everything first happend I just didn't know what to deal with it. I am a terrible communicator and usually when shit goes down I feel like holding everything back and keeping to myself. I hate to admit it but being an online poker player has introverted me. I mean I am fairly sociable but now it gets to the point I feel more comfortable talking to people on im/skype than in person. It's kind of sad but it is what it is.

When I first got out to Seattle I really didn't know many people. I mean I had some friends out here that I knew before but for the most part I just chilled by myself. Meeting people and starting a new network is always a problem when you move to a new city That is when I took it upon myself to take poker more seriously. My first initial year was a lot better than last year but hey it is what it is. The games got tougher and I really wasn't advancing my play. Now I feel a lot more comfortable with my game. I still feel like I have some ways to go. I am always willing to learn because the second you think that you know everything you close of what you can learn. Being close minded will definitely be the downfall for a lot of people. In poker you just can't be. There is no one optimal style or one pure way to play a hand. My poker journey has showed me that people can have such different playing styles and still just crush the games.

I decided to limit my volume this past month. I thought it was the professional thing to do. I just had so much going on and didn't know how to deal with it. Those are the times when you are supposed to get on your knees and pray to God about the situation. For some reason, I just feel like I didn't need to. I don't know why though because it is so stupid. You never know what types of signs or answers God will give you. I feel like I am so ungrateful sometimes. God has blessed me in so many ways in my life but I refuse to do something simple and saying thank you every once in a while. I will do better with this. I know if the roles were reversed I would think that I am an ungrateful bastard. But hey he still wakes me up the next morning giving me to opportunity to make things right. I know God is definitely not through with me and I have a long ways to go. Side note I am not trying to force my views on anyone and what I feel is how I feel. I never want to force my views on people and I can't stand it when people try.

Anyways I just didn't feel like talking to anyone about the situation. I mean don't get me wrong I talked to some people but I hate just talking about my problems with people. Maybe that is a fault of mine but I hate bringing down peoples moods with my own problems. This is the reason why I decide to hold things in and deal with it myself. I don't like to complain and moan I just take it and try to keep going. Maybe one day I will change my way of dealing with tough problems but that is just me. I rather just lock myself in seclusion and think about it or just try not to. Oh well I guess that's part of becoming more mature is knowing how to deal with situations.

I played about 600 sngs and watched some videos on pokerpwnage. I really like the content they have on there and feel like with some tweaks they could be a very good site. They have a lot of sick players on there and I have learned a lot I feel. I just need to watch more movies and actually trying things and put what I have learned into practice. Anyways that's all for now I will post pics of my graphs but in a separate post so this post won't turn into TLDR but hell who reads this anyways.

Hopefully this blog allows me to open up and actually write deal with my problems instead of holding them and get infuriated/down on myself. That is why I give other bloggers like msusyr24 and assassinato so much credit. It's so hard to just talk about your problems and put your business out in public. I am coming around to the point where I can slowly. I mean don't get it twisted I will have to leave somethings out but for the most part trying to not turn this inot a monotonous regular poker blog.

wbmustang