When I started this blog I never thought I was going to try real hard and not complain about swings etc. etc. but it's the way of the game. I just hate blogs when someone is like I am crushing the game and they only blog when they are winning. Blogs are so cool because you get to see the dynamic of the person that is writing it. You get to feel the emotional roller coaster, known as poker, and how people deal with their struggles. Basically this is a mini disclaimer because I will be complaining a little bit.
The picture at the top is supposed to represent breaking through. That's all I want to do is break through in this game. That was my whole goal this year but of course things never go like it is supposed to plan. I just look at my profits for 2009 and sometimes I feel like I am wasting my time. Don't get me wrong I love this game, I love to grind, that's why I play but, can a brotha make some money. I feel like I study do the right things but often times don't get rewarded.
When you read stuff like this it will make it sound like I am either a losing player or having a super long BE stretch but I just feel like I am a better player than my results are showing. I know that vers is going through his 5k BE stretch and I guess it's kind of reassuring. He is one of the best 45/180 man grinders I know and he is going through his struggles. I just have to accept the fact that the games are tougher and I have to GRIND though it.
Yesterday I felt like I played pretty good but nothing really went my way. I bust the Sunday 1/4 million when my KK < AJ just so annoying. I am happy at how I played thought in MTT's in general. I felt I capitalized on spots to squeeze etc but some things I did may of been a bit excessive. There are def spots where I think I am better off just re raising and jamming flops instead of just shoving my stack in the middle. Either way its gotta turn around.
This next week I just plan on grinding a lot because I have friends coming into town on Friday. After that I won't be playing that much for about a week because I need to entertain them instead of playing poker. In a sense the timing is good. I could probably use a week of though. Hopefully I can start making some good profit this upcoming week. Below are my results for the month. I am down like $100 but was up to like $600 this month at most. All I want to do is have back to back winnning sessions and I think I will take off from there. Don't get me wrong thhough, the confidence/swag is there, but the results are not. Maybe PokerStars doesn't like black people j/k obv :-(.
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