Everyday Struggle

"Im livin everyday like a hustle, another drug to juggle. Another day, another struggle!"
-Notorious B.I.G-

So I am pretty pissed off at myself right now because it feels like I haven't played an SNG in a couple of days. I can contribute this to a couple of things but I will just talk about what I have been up to lately.

On Friday I ended up going to the horse races with some coworkers. It was the first time I have seen it live and I definitely have a new outlook on horse racing. The people there are pretty funny just degenning it up betting on an animal to win. I just don't see how people can do it. It's weird because I just don't figure out how you can bet on an animal. Like I mean when you bet on sports they are actual people, they do interviews show so you think you know about the psychology of them, and at the end of the day you know humans. But with horse racing its like wtf information do you have to give you an edge on a horse. Maybe the jockey is good but the horse isn't gonna be like will imma come out there and wind because I feel good etc. Oh well kind of a tangent but just my two cents.

Later on that night, I ended up rolling with them to the casino. When we got out there I imediately signed up for $3/5. I walk in there and look at the least and it is on diesel. I put my name on the list grab a pager and head back out. They are in this lounge place just drinking so we decide to go out and gamble in the pit. I usually don't gamble in the pit but I played roulette and lost $40 oh well what a spew.

After eons, I finally got the page to go play poker. Now here is the predicament, I rode with one of my coworkers and didn't know how long he wanted to stay and watch me play. So I sat down buy in for $500 and play for a little. I sat down and got a feel for the table and notice how fishy all the players were. Pretty much a bunch of limping and nothing too crazy. There was this one cat who I thought was a fish and he was kind of luckboxing. Anyways there were only like a couple of hands I really got into.

Playing live I really am trying to get better with analyzing stack sizes etc because its no blinking on your screen. So I am getting a little better but I will give you the hands. One hand that drove me kinda of crazy internally in particular. I have about $420-450 in my stick. A tighter UTG guy raises to $15. We get two callers and now it is to me on the button I look down and oh boi like Jazze Phizzle I got AKs. So I bump it up to $65. Bam thats the first mistake I should of made it $75. Then it goes to the guy UTG and he reraises to $165. The two other callers gtfo and now it is on me. I was just thinking about his range. I was like man live players usually don't 4 bet all like. He is UTG and he is mad comfortable. I mean buddy didn't look like a ballar so I think the money means something to him. He also is rockin out on his ipod looking comfortable. I ask him how much more he has left he said $175 so I thought and folded. Plus I felt like I can just pick a better spot instead of flipping or possible being crushed. I mean these live fishes are going to pay me anyway.

Last Hand, we have a MP limper and a LP limper I am in the SB with AQo but I am oop so I just bump it up to $30. The guy in MP calls and the other guy calls. Bam flop comes AJ8r cbet $45 and the guy calls. The turn comes 9 diamonds. I was like hmm I could bet here but let me check and try to get him to bluff so I check and checks. Turn is a 4 diamonds and I am like alright I need to value bet here. I grab my chips and ended up betting $120. Now that I think about it that may be too much but hey I suck at adding up the pot live. I just am lazy and hate doing the math for it. Either way guy heeems and haws counts out chips and calls. That was the biggetst hand of the night. Nothing to excited but booked +$120. By that time my coworker was ready to leave so I dipped.

Saturday I ended up going to the Chelsea vs. Sounders soccer game. It was real cool because Qwest Field was pretty much sold out and was the biggest soccer game I have been to. Even though Chelsea's A team was out there, they still fielded a decent squad and managed to absolutely abuse the Sounders. You just see how much better the English sides are than an MLS squad. Chelsea looked so composed on the ball and did whatever they wanted to do. While the Sounders were more frantic and always looking to pass instead of shooting. Either way it was an good game and the Sounders lost 2-0. I am really looking forward to going to the Sounders vs. Barcelona game August 4th.

After the soccer game, I ended up going to the NSBE (National Society of Blacke Engineers) Bbq. It was a pretty good time and got to see most of my friends from college tghat I kicked it with. I ended up just kickin it out there eating food having a good time. After that, I just went home and passed out. I guess I kind have been pretty busy.

This brings me to my next point about why I have not been playing. I just feel like I don't have any balance at all. I feel like I can never find the happy medium of going and kicking it with friends vs. playing poker online. I mean I always get cracked on kind of because everyone is like we don't see you out. Well I feel like I don't need to go out. Why go out and spew off money instead of just coming home and making money. Now it seems like the roles are reversed. I have been going out lately and now I haven't played any SNG's. Sure I played live but I rather be playing online trying to get that bank roll going. Don't get me wrong live is a good change of pace but I just wanna get the BR on swole online.

I guess it comes down to it I am hungry but I am not putting in the time to even get better/make more money. Sure I have studied some stuff but I have to find a way to put these games in and maybe possibly go out. I dunno its something that I just struggle with. It seems like I have said something about it in previous post and just seems like a vicious cycle. Like I really do want to start going to the gym, going to the store, grabbing groceries SO I WON'T EAT OUT ALL THE TIME!!!!! But, I never really slow down to do it. After work all I think about is coming home to grind. If I don't start right after work then the games load way to slow being out here on Pacific Time. After that I am so tired from working and grinding I just go out get something to eat. Eat and go to sleep. Oh well.

I know this post has been all over the place so I apologize. I guess I should of put this on top as my disclaimer my bad.