Late last night, I went over some HH's with Reasons14. It is amazing how good he is with knowing ranges in different situations. He really studies hard and it shows because he can break stuff down and know exactly what ranges you need in each situation. Then there is me, I definitely have a good idea bout what ranges I need to shove but more often than not I am a feel based player. I keep saying that I want to get to the level where I am sick good with identifying what ranges I need and when but its kind of hard for me especially trying to balance things.
We found some leaks that I do have. I am not going to put my business out there about what leaks were found but I am going to work hard on fixing them. I think the best way to do this is to cut down some of my tables. I am going to start 14 tabling instead of playing 18 to work on fixing my leaks. I mean my leaks are not huge but every little bit counts. Especially for me, because it seems like I am basically going through like a 2k break even stretch although it might be less but that's what it looks like on Sharkscope.
Balance!!!! I know I wrote something about this a while ago but it is so freaking hard for me to find a balance between poker and actually having a social life. It's bad enough I go to work from 6:00-2:30, although I am very thankful to have a job, and then get off and start grinding. Plus people really don't even know the hustle/struggle it is being an SNG grinder. I mean my friends would look at me crazy if I say uhh sorry I can't go out to have drinks I am grinding. Plus, you never know what experience that you are letting pass by. I knew that playing a lot more volume this month it was going to be harder for me to balance thing but it is good. I need to find out how to fit all of this in together. I like poker too much and I want to be successful too much so I know I need to figure out how to squeeze in volume. At the same time I know you have to be a well rounded individual so I guess it is like a work in progress.
I am happy because I see 1k games played in site but I am not happy with my profit margin. Oh well at least I will have a bunch of fpp's.
wbmustang
Monday, June 15, 2009
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Better Days
I had a good day playing today and actually won money. I don't know what happened but, Reasons14 was railing me and I was listening to The Diplomats and I went on a pretty sick heater. I was running so good it was unbelievable. I felt like I could of shoved ATC's and still won against AA. I absolutely love that feeling when you are on a heater. It's so hard to explain but you almost feel invincible like you can't do anything wrong. Even if you do something wrong, you always feel like you are going to hit that gin card and suckout.
I have actually put in a lot of volume for myself this month. I am pretty impressed too because I have just been pushing myself. There have been times where I felt like I ran like complete dog shit and I still find a way to keep on playing and staying on top of my game. It's not easy but still I grind.
It's crazy how far I have come in the time I started playing these SNG's. I remember where I only use to play one table at a time and was biting tooth and nail to cash. I always use to laugh at people shoving and was like oh I will wait to crack them. Funny how the tides have turned because now I am 18 tabling and I am the one shoving. Although I feel like the games have gotten harder, I still feel like I can be +ev and make money if I just put in the volume. I never realized how much volume I didn't put in and how small my sample sizes were per month. This month has also taught me how much I actually need to play to put in that required volume. I guess that makes no sense at all but you really don't realize how much you have to grind until you set a goal start reaching it and realize you put in mad work.
I need to put in some heavy games the next couple of days because I have some plans for this weekend now. I will be going paintballing for my first time on Saturday and totally looking forward to it. I am kind of nervous because I know it will sting like a mug when I get shot for the first time but I can't wait to go out there and try to light some one up.
wbmustang
I have actually put in a lot of volume for myself this month. I am pretty impressed too because I have just been pushing myself. There have been times where I felt like I ran like complete dog shit and I still find a way to keep on playing and staying on top of my game. It's not easy but still I grind.
It's crazy how far I have come in the time I started playing these SNG's. I remember where I only use to play one table at a time and was biting tooth and nail to cash. I always use to laugh at people shoving and was like oh I will wait to crack them. Funny how the tides have turned because now I am 18 tabling and I am the one shoving. Although I feel like the games have gotten harder, I still feel like I can be +ev and make money if I just put in the volume. I never realized how much volume I didn't put in and how small my sample sizes were per month. This month has also taught me how much I actually need to play to put in that required volume. I guess that makes no sense at all but you really don't realize how much you have to grind until you set a goal start reaching it and realize you put in mad work.
I need to put in some heavy games the next couple of days because I have some plans for this weekend now. I will be going paintballing for my first time on Saturday and totally looking forward to it. I am kind of nervous because I know it will sting like a mug when I get shot for the first time but I can't wait to go out there and try to light some one up.
wbmustang
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Still I Grind....
But I don't shine. So far this month I am very proud with the volume of games that I have put in. I have put in over 500 sng's this month and that is a ton for me because my top month is like 800 and that was last month.
Although my volume has increased, I have no money to show for it but I feel like I am playing well. These things are like printing money and I just feel like I have to be patient and keep grinding and the positive results will come around. I just hate when I am not up on the month or losing.
To me, I see poker as a dream to get me out of this cubicle and waking up every morning at 6 am. It is like a huge punch to the stomach when I am not successful and I think that it fuels me with a hunger for more. This is absolutely insane because I have never felt this way about anything in my life. I can sit there and be down money playing sng's but know that I am like a 20x happier person but oh well it is what it is. Maybe I just need to realize that for the rest of my life will consist of working and playing at the same time although I would love to just play. I mean yeah I hate the 6:00-2:30 and it is guranteed income. Maybe I can just use both sources as good income so I can just retire early meh. Oh well I am still positive and still grinding just can't wait to keep shining!
wbmustang
Although my volume has increased, I have no money to show for it but I feel like I am playing well. These things are like printing money and I just feel like I have to be patient and keep grinding and the positive results will come around. I just hate when I am not up on the month or losing.
To me, I see poker as a dream to get me out of this cubicle and waking up every morning at 6 am. It is like a huge punch to the stomach when I am not successful and I think that it fuels me with a hunger for more. This is absolutely insane because I have never felt this way about anything in my life. I can sit there and be down money playing sng's but know that I am like a 20x happier person but oh well it is what it is. Maybe I just need to realize that for the rest of my life will consist of working and playing at the same time although I would love to just play. I mean yeah I hate the 6:00-2:30 and it is guranteed income. Maybe I can just use both sources as good income so I can just retire early meh. Oh well I am still positive and still grinding just can't wait to keep shining!
wbmustang
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Confused
Right now I have no idea wtf is going on with poker. I finally corrected the problem of not misclicking while I am running my sessions with HEM. But that is not really the tilting part. How can I run so freaking good in the $6.50's and so bad in the $12's. I find it very perplexing but I am just gonna keep playing my game and just patiently waiting on my heater. I am doing pretty good with putting in volume for this month and I hope to keep it up. One person commented on my blog and said try to be disgustingly positive. That's all I am gonna try to do. Just grind grind grind until that money comes in. I know I am +ev so no need to even trip.
Other than that life is pretty good and it is clear that I am always living for the weekend. It's bad to wish away your life but I always get that feeling like wow I can't wait till the weekend is here. Oh well till next time see you on the tables.
wbmustang
Other than that life is pretty good and it is clear that I am always living for the weekend. It's bad to wish away your life but I always get that feeling like wow I can't wait till the weekend is here. Oh well till next time see you on the tables.
wbmustang
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Didn't Play Today
Unfortunately was not a good day today in terms of putting in volume. I had a softball game at 5:15 so I played and that and we proceeded to loose I mean get cheated out of the game. Basically the story goes we were up by like 3 runs and the home team is up hitting. They ended up scoring enough runs in that inning to overtake the lead and at the same time they ran the clock out too. We ended up losing by like 2 or 3 runs because they called the time limit for the game. WTF I feel like we got cheated where is David Stern I know he is behind this.
I plan on putting in at least four hours of loading again. I really am going to try to reach my goal of 1-1.5k SNG's on the month. I mean these things are like printing money as long as you put in the volume. However, if you look at my recent post I guess it is not like printing money.
The one positive thing that I did do is to change my avatar on PokerStars. Since people have jokes when I say my name is Wilford they are always ask like Wilford Brimley. Well, this has only really recently happened were people got that joke so I have changed my avatar from a fly pic of me to the one below. Hopefully it brings the run good and good health weee!
I plan on putting in at least four hours of loading again. I really am going to try to reach my goal of 1-1.5k SNG's on the month. I mean these things are like printing money as long as you put in the volume. However, if you look at my recent post I guess it is not like printing money.
The one positive thing that I did do is to change my avatar on PokerStars. Since people have jokes when I say my name is Wilford they are always ask like Wilford Brimley. Well, this has only really recently happened were people got that joke so I have changed my avatar from a fly pic of me to the one below. Hopefully it brings the run good and good health weee!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Upswings and Downswings
Sometimes poker and life can be so hand it in hand it is ridiculous. You run hot and you are on a ridiculous upswing and you never felt better. Then, you have a -50 BI downswing and everything sucks and you feel like crap but you try to play it off and play on and know you can't afford to tilt. Well I feel the exact same way about my life right now. The reason I didn't update this blog for a while because I was kind of stuck about what to and not to write on this. I guess it does kind of weird me out to know that if I put myself out there on this blog that strangers and close people that I know I might read it. I have always been ridiculously private with my feelings. I rarely let anyone know how I am feeling or what is going on because I feel like it is an issue more about me so why does anyone else need to know. I am going to try to start writing about my life and feelings more on this thing because I thought my blog was getting lame. Yeah I won this day, I lost this way, I am getting better. Whatever its all fine and dandy but it comes to a point where you think there is more to it. That's what I am going to try to accomplish more with this blog. That's why I really respect the blogs of TheLipoFund, when he updated it, and Assassinato because they don't care they put it all out there. Well, I don't know if I can go from an extreme left to an extreme right but I am going to start taking baby steps in the next direction.
Sometimes, it just feels like I am smiling on the outside and just really dying on the inside. I stay to myself, don't really talk to my family like I should, because I am an idiot obv, and try to live life like I loner. I have been away from my family for song its ridiculous. I wanted to go to school in Tallahassee to not only get a different culture experience at an Historically Black College, but I also wanted to get out of the house. All I knew was that house and my parents rules and I just couldn't wait to get out. Yeah I loved my family but sometimes I hated the way that they had so much control of my life. I mean I don't want to make my parents sound bad because I love them but sometimes I feel that I wasn't allowed to do what I really wanted to do when I wanted to do which led me to wild out pretty hard in school. That first taste of freedom that I actually experienced when I first got to college was probably like a continuous cocaine high. I have never done it but that is the way people describe. I was just so free and could do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted and there was nothing that anyone could do about it. With that type of mentality, comes some parts in your life when you are going to learn life lessons. I feel like I learned so much in school about myself and life its ridiculous. It probably has shaped me and made into the person that I am today.
After, I graduated I accepted a job offer in Seattle,WA of course I could never move back home. It just felt like I got to the point of my life where I can't live with them anymore and just have to be out of my own. I know it probably perplexes them when I don't call like I should but sometimes I just like that feeling I get knowing that I am just out alone my own man trying to do me. Recently, I have been questioning a lot of things in my life and making me realize how important my family should be to me. Nothing bad has happened or anything but I just know deep down how important they are and should be to me. When everyone else lets you down they are the ones that you can talk to. During this time period I also have been trying to figure out what in life is going to truly make me happy. I would be telling you a lie straight to your face if I told you I was happy going to work from 6:00am-2:30pm every freaking day. Yeah, its good to have a job in this economy, the job is fine, and there are things I can learn but ultimately I know that's not me. I absolutely hate structure sometimes and would rather be on MY schedule that a 6:00am-2:30pm schedule. That's why I even started playing poker in the first place. I mean I know I need a back up plan because obv I am not good enough to just play poker but its such a dream of mine. I don't want to have to wake up everyday having to go to work at the same time. I would much rather do what I want to do when I want to do it. I will put my heart into work because it is a means to an end and I need that job for stable money. But, my heart is so much into the game of poker. Sidebar my parents/family are going to think I am NUTS if/when they read this. But anyways I would be perfectly fine waking up doing something I absolutely love to do everyday and making my own money than waking up 6:00am-2:30pm making someone else money. I guess I just have that hustlers/entrepreneur spirit. I always that my boy Pat in college for crazy talking about a job working for someone else is not him but hey Pat I feel where you are coming from. Ultimately I just have to grow as a person, keep networking, get this graduate degree, and play poker. That is going to be my game plan. Hopefully by the time I get that graduate degree I have so much freaking money saved up so I can just take some time and figure out my next move. Ultimately, that feels like it is going to take forever because grad school classes keep getting delayed. This is like the fourth or fifth time that it has been delayed and it is driving me crazy. I would be more frustrated if I was lazy and it was something I did but hey I am in the program just waiting to start.
Poker has been so mind wrecking it is ridiculous. April was such a freaking smooth month and everything was perfect. 776 games played 27% ROI $2,275. I never had any type of rough patches of everything. Now lets look at the stats for May. 896 games played -2% ROI -$447. This month was so trying because I never felt like I was gaining any type of traction. It is so frustrated to absolutely be killing the $6.50's and getting killed in the $12's. They are not that much harder and I believe I have a pretty good edge in these games. When going through last month I just started to think why people they are grinding when they are playing online. The truth of the matter the game is such a grind it is ridiculous but I love it. You have to love doing something if you are sitting there playing in front of a computer for 4-5 hrs and you are losing money. Sometimes I feel like an idiot after the session but I know deep down inside it is what I love. I feel like my game is on point for the most part though. Been doing some more review over my hands and posting hands but going to try to get better with that. Meeting people like Assassinato and his boys his boy he introduced me to sexuelity really taught me that. You get out of poker what you put in. If you don't put in the work or the time to play you are not going to get better point blank. This is why I am going to try to work harder than I have ever before. This month I was very proud of myself for putting in the volume despite it being a losing month. To some people they may sit back and laugh when I say volume but it was the most amount of games I have ever played in a month. I honestly think that I could of actually hit the 1k games played mark next month when I put in the time. I know I will run better and I know that I will keep analyzing spots to help me get better. I also finally got HEM after everyone cracked on me for being nitty and not buy int. It is definitely a good purchase and I am interested to see how well I do with it next month. Especially, when I try to start transitioning to cash which will probably happen after I am done with my current deal at SNGMentors but who knows. Well I might as well list my goals for next month.
-1k games played
-20-25% ROI
-Study @ least 8 hrs a week
It's going to be hard for me to track the last goal of studying 8 hrs a week but I will figure it out. Whether it be reviewing my hh's, looking at other peoples, or running stuff through SNGWiz myself. I know this post was super long but hey that's what happens when you don't update your blog in a month. Here is to running well in the second half of the year because I need to start stacking cheese to make some believers out of people :-p.
P.S I love and miss all my family a lot especially my Joi Joi :-)
wbmustang
Sometimes, it just feels like I am smiling on the outside and just really dying on the inside. I stay to myself, don't really talk to my family like I should, because I am an idiot obv, and try to live life like I loner. I have been away from my family for song its ridiculous. I wanted to go to school in Tallahassee to not only get a different culture experience at an Historically Black College, but I also wanted to get out of the house. All I knew was that house and my parents rules and I just couldn't wait to get out. Yeah I loved my family but sometimes I hated the way that they had so much control of my life. I mean I don't want to make my parents sound bad because I love them but sometimes I feel that I wasn't allowed to do what I really wanted to do when I wanted to do which led me to wild out pretty hard in school. That first taste of freedom that I actually experienced when I first got to college was probably like a continuous cocaine high. I have never done it but that is the way people describe. I was just so free and could do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted and there was nothing that anyone could do about it. With that type of mentality, comes some parts in your life when you are going to learn life lessons. I feel like I learned so much in school about myself and life its ridiculous. It probably has shaped me and made into the person that I am today.
After, I graduated I accepted a job offer in Seattle,WA of course I could never move back home. It just felt like I got to the point of my life where I can't live with them anymore and just have to be out of my own. I know it probably perplexes them when I don't call like I should but sometimes I just like that feeling I get knowing that I am just out alone my own man trying to do me. Recently, I have been questioning a lot of things in my life and making me realize how important my family should be to me. Nothing bad has happened or anything but I just know deep down how important they are and should be to me. When everyone else lets you down they are the ones that you can talk to. During this time period I also have been trying to figure out what in life is going to truly make me happy. I would be telling you a lie straight to your face if I told you I was happy going to work from 6:00am-2:30pm every freaking day. Yeah, its good to have a job in this economy, the job is fine, and there are things I can learn but ultimately I know that's not me. I absolutely hate structure sometimes and would rather be on MY schedule that a 6:00am-2:30pm schedule. That's why I even started playing poker in the first place. I mean I know I need a back up plan because obv I am not good enough to just play poker but its such a dream of mine. I don't want to have to wake up everyday having to go to work at the same time. I would much rather do what I want to do when I want to do it. I will put my heart into work because it is a means to an end and I need that job for stable money. But, my heart is so much into the game of poker. Sidebar my parents/family are going to think I am NUTS if/when they read this. But anyways I would be perfectly fine waking up doing something I absolutely love to do everyday and making my own money than waking up 6:00am-2:30pm making someone else money. I guess I just have that hustlers/entrepreneur spirit. I always that my boy Pat in college for crazy talking about a job working for someone else is not him but hey Pat I feel where you are coming from. Ultimately I just have to grow as a person, keep networking, get this graduate degree, and play poker. That is going to be my game plan. Hopefully by the time I get that graduate degree I have so much freaking money saved up so I can just take some time and figure out my next move. Ultimately, that feels like it is going to take forever because grad school classes keep getting delayed. This is like the fourth or fifth time that it has been delayed and it is driving me crazy. I would be more frustrated if I was lazy and it was something I did but hey I am in the program just waiting to start.
Poker has been so mind wrecking it is ridiculous. April was such a freaking smooth month and everything was perfect. 776 games played 27% ROI $2,275. I never had any type of rough patches of everything. Now lets look at the stats for May. 896 games played -2% ROI -$447. This month was so trying because I never felt like I was gaining any type of traction. It is so frustrated to absolutely be killing the $6.50's and getting killed in the $12's. They are not that much harder and I believe I have a pretty good edge in these games. When going through last month I just started to think why people they are grinding when they are playing online. The truth of the matter the game is such a grind it is ridiculous but I love it. You have to love doing something if you are sitting there playing in front of a computer for 4-5 hrs and you are losing money. Sometimes I feel like an idiot after the session but I know deep down inside it is what I love. I feel like my game is on point for the most part though. Been doing some more review over my hands and posting hands but going to try to get better with that. Meeting people like Assassinato and his boys his boy he introduced me to sexuelity really taught me that. You get out of poker what you put in. If you don't put in the work or the time to play you are not going to get better point blank. This is why I am going to try to work harder than I have ever before. This month I was very proud of myself for putting in the volume despite it being a losing month. To some people they may sit back and laugh when I say volume but it was the most amount of games I have ever played in a month. I honestly think that I could of actually hit the 1k games played mark next month when I put in the time. I know I will run better and I know that I will keep analyzing spots to help me get better. I also finally got HEM after everyone cracked on me for being nitty and not buy int. It is definitely a good purchase and I am interested to see how well I do with it next month. Especially, when I try to start transitioning to cash which will probably happen after I am done with my current deal at SNGMentors but who knows. Well I might as well list my goals for next month.
-1k games played
-20-25% ROI
-Study @ least 8 hrs a week
It's going to be hard for me to track the last goal of studying 8 hrs a week but I will figure it out. Whether it be reviewing my hh's, looking at other peoples, or running stuff through SNGWiz myself. I know this post was super long but hey that's what happens when you don't update your blog in a month. Here is to running well in the second half of the year because I need to start stacking cheese to make some believers out of people :-p.
P.S I love and miss all my family a lot especially my Joi Joi :-)
wbmustang
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